josies first letter from costa

hey guys,

sending out a quick little note from costa. everything is going swimmingly. flew out wednesday, the flight was quick and painless. at one point i opened my window to get a liittle more reading light and we were just over the border between land and ocean, I´m not sure of which country, and it was this gorgeous sunset and just to the left of the sun was this perfect crescent moon, and while we were watching the sun go down all of a sudden this huge bolt of lightning strikes like a foot past the wing of our plane. it was crazy, like all the elements combined in that one time and place to welcome us into central america. the lightning storms continued til we landed, but we landed so no complaints. we spent that night in a hotel in downtown san jose and the next day walked to the bus station and caught a 3 hour sketchy bus ride to san isidro, where mckenzie lives. randomly found her downtown, thank god since we had no clue how to find her house, and caught a cab to her house because of all our luggage, but it´s less than a 15 minute walk so we´ve been walking in and out of town when we need anything. her house is adorable but not furnished yet really, because her truck and furniture are coming down in a big shipment in a few weeks, so until then shannon and I are spooning on a twin mattress on the floor, and we´ve been eating dinner and playing kings and fuck the dealer, etc. on the floor. we´re getting bars put on the window within the week, since the house got broken into a lot before we got here and there´s bullet holes in my bedroom window... don´t worry, they´re supposedly only from a pellet gun.... drink of choice here is guaro, not recommended if you don´t like hangovers. my spanish is coming back pretty effortlessly, actually, and I can fool most people into thinking I understand everything they´re saying... I´m broke as a joke, so we´ll see how long I can stretch it. speaking of that, and I know you´ll all shake your heads at this, but I just spent like half my money at the vet for a puppy we found on the way to town one day, who had some serious flea and worm issues. however, now we have a guard dog, well, guard puppy, who we fittingly named bones. it´s rainy season, so it´s been raining on and off, today is nice though, and even when it rains it´s not cold so it´s not bad at all if you just accept the fact that you´ll be soaking wet all day. domincal, the beach town mckenzie used to live in where she knows a bunch of people, is 18 miles, or about a 40 dollar cab ride away, but the bus comes fairly often and will take us there too. we´re going out tomorrow, but once we have the car we´ll be driving all over the country and into panama to see the canal. I miss you all but everything here is gorgeous and relaxing and healing and perfect, so you probably won´t be seeing me for as long as my money lasts.... love love love, ex´s and oh´s.
jos

p.s. for those of you who saw it, the gash in my knee is sooo infected. awesome...
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gabrielle toft to Josie
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josie,
i cant fully write all that i want to as im at work. and i find that i can never adequately describe what i want to say when i really need to say it (or can i?) unless you are around, and then it seems like the good lines or advice or the truth, even when it hurts, come flowing from me.
im so proud of you first of all. that you have made these great leaps and bounds out of comfort and lifestyle and easiness to go be a part of something wild and adventurous and scary. im terribly jealous. so jealous my bones hurt, but thats okay. its jealousy of our closest friends that makes things stir in us and forces us to seek out the things we are capable of and test ourselves, and then i guess, its not jealousy at all...but something much more like...well...i dont know. like, love.
i wish the best for you.
keep me updated. like, on everything. i will try to make magic happen here at home, so that when you do come back there will be a safe place for you and your new pup (youre nuts but i totally understand) to land.
i miss you like fucking hell.
i miss you like i missed summer, like i miss 19, like i miss myself as a little girl, carefree, dirty face, sweaty brow. i miss you so much.
work it out, baby. thats my mantra, however you may take it.
say hello to shanny, and take care of each other. take care of your heart. heal up. and let me know how that goes. i feel so open and wounded and raw all the time. but i guess that is part of the healing, leaving it to the open air, and chance.

you are beautiful in everything you do, i couldnt ask for a more perfect friend. come home soon you dead ass baby.

keep it nitty,
love,
g

a drive is never long enough, nor a song, nor a kiss