lesson one

just listen to Au Revoir Simone on repeat (especially Stay Golden and The Lucky One) and make paper snow flakes out of pictures pre schoolers draw for you, their little dirty hands grabbing at your face and all you want to do is keep hugging them, their small arms and legs and hopeful smiles, soft cheeks and when they love you they LOVE you and so you have hundreds of pictures drawn for you, thousands of snowflakes, make your room winter again and hibernate away, put your brothers sweatshirt on and imagine what hes doing, that smell still resting in there, around the armpits and collar, from the time you stole it from his truck and feel embarrassed because youre not seven anymore and wanting to do all the cool things your big brother does, your 23 and still vying for his attention, for their attention, any way that you can.
listen to these songs on repeat, make rain with forefinger and middle finger, quieter now, just mouth the words, silently and slowly, make hand motions against sky, youll feel better after a story, an ice pack, a cup of juice, an accidental mommy, your fitting together pieces of jean and fabric, what a delightful girl you are, what a lovely woman you have become, slit slip snake bite. snakes are reptiles, not amphibians, you know.

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Stay Golden Lyrics

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